Today is the day, I will never be the same.

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I'm Celia. Simple and to the point. I only wish it was all as simple and to the point as all of this seems to be.

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organicmoon:

last night was so much fun! i love you both!

Alone.

For the first time in a very, very long time, I will be alone tonight. I’m quite excited about it. I miss my alone time. Ever since I was a small child, I have enjoyed my alone time more than most. I’m afraid that I won’t know what to do with myself though. Since its been so long since I’ve had any real alone time. But I think I’ll be fine. :)

Hurry home baby. I love you.

I’m so sick and so lonely. I’m always going to be sad. Ive hurt people so unbelievably bad that my insides are torn to shreds. I’ve lost almost everyone that has ever truly cared for me. And for what? I will always be sad because there is no changing the things that I’ve done and gone through. I will always be torn and broken. I live with it everyday. There are no switches for me. No turning it on or off. Just good days and bad days. And the bad days may be really bad, but that’s my life. That’s what I’ve chosen to do with it. There’s no turning back what I’ve done. Fuck it all.

I’m so sick and so lonely. I’m always going to be sad. Ive hurt people so unbelievably bad that my insides are torn to shreds. I’ve lost almost everyone that has ever truly cared for me. And for what? I will always be sad because there is no changing the things that I’ve done and gone through. I will always be torn and broken. I live with it everyday. There are no switches for me. No turning it on or off. Just good days and bad days. And the bad days may be really bad, but that’s my life. That’s what I’ve chosen to do with it. There’s no turning back what I’ve done.

Fuck it all.

Fucking terrible day already.

I miss her being this small. (Taken with instagram)

I miss her being this small. (Taken with instagram)

Mama cat with her baby. Thanks @barriittnneeyyyr !! (Taken with instagram)

Mama cat with her baby. Thanks @barriittnneeyyyr !! (Taken with instagram)

Two things that have made me happy today: float on by modest mouse and this beautiful sunflower from my hometown that an old friend sent me saying it reminded them of me.

Two things that have made me happy today: float on by modest mouse and this beautiful sunflower from my hometown that an old friend sent me saying it reminded them of me.

I feel like loving me is more of a burden than a pleasure.
I feel like I should be sorry to whoever loved or loves me.
I feel like I ruin peoples lives.
I feel like I will be or already have been your downfall.
Be weary of me. I have good intensions always. Always. But rarely do my good intensions end up good.
I will weigh you down. I will break you.
I will love you more than you thought was possible.
I will show you what it means to be loved more than life.
But do you want that?
I wish I would die to set you free.
Free from the weight and the burden that is me.
I will run away. Far far away. So far you’ll never think of me again.
I will leave and never look back, never return, but never forget.

My love is a poison meant to kill no one but the monster inside of me.